Pain

Pain in my chest,
a feeling of sinking,
has given me flutters.
No, I'm not drinking.

Did I do enough,
in caring for you?
Please God,
What do I do?

I've seen death before,
when my father went,
but this moment in time,
is feeling much different.

Where do I go?
Please tell me how,
I continue to live,
after failing my wedding vow?

I feel I have failed,
my life's task.
How do I know,
Who do I ask?